My Creative Vision

I've tried to figure out exactly who I am and what I'm supposed to do with my life for years now. Yeah I'm only 24 and I have time, but, I want to have a general idea. I want to know so I can build on it and find out more about myself. 

My latest endeavor has been illustrating pieces of literature that I have written. Most are lyrical ballads and the art that goes with them mainly one subject. That is my choice and my reasoning right now. I want my art to convey a message and my writing to form an image in your mind. I want my creativity to be felt, not just seen. Here are examples of what I'm working towards:

I'm Listening 

Speak to me,
Telepathically,
So I can feel,
How you feel...
I'm ready to be,
The other half of who you are,
The other half of what you need,
What's missing to make you happy...
Answer my pleas,
I'm not trying,
To bother you,
But get your attention...
Asking my questions,
Trying to keep it simple...

I'm listening,
To see what I'm missing,
I've overlooked,
Something you've said...
My heart hears yours,
Calling it from its safe place,
Making it beat faster,
Inside of me...
The excitement,
You're causing,
Keeps me guessing,
What's coming next...
I'm listening,
So speak up baby...

Stepping into the shade,
Keeping my silence,
Waiting for you to proclaim,
Your presence...
I look around,
Waiting for a sound,
A sign telling me,
That you're close...
No one needs to understand,
Nothing has to make sense,
Only you and I get it,
And that's how it's supposed to be...
Open your mind willingly...
Connect with me...

I'm listening,
To see what I'm missing,
I've overlooked,
Something you've said...
My heart hears yours,
Calling it from its safe place,
Making it beat faster,
Inside of me...
The excitement,
You're causing,
Keeps me guessing,
What's coming next...
I'm listening,
So speak up baby...

Speak up so it's clear,
Let me know that you're certain,
That you're here,
Here for me...
Here to grow,
And join together,
Become one,
With me spiritually...
I can't wait,
To feel your energy,
Work with mine,
In perfect harmony...
This feels so right,
But what are you thinking?

What's your idea,
About this whole situation,
This whole experience,
Of finally meeting....
What do you see,
As the next move,
We need to make,
To keep this going strong...
Did I have you all wrong...
And truly what I'm needing ,
To progress forward...
I'm hearing everything,
I'm listening and it's all become clear....

I'm listening,
To see what I'm missing,
I've overlooked,
Something you've said...
My heart hears yours,
Calling it from its safe place,
Making it beat faster,
Inside of me...
The excitement,
You're causing,
Keeps me guessing,
What's coming next...
I'm listening,
So speak up baby...

Kristen LeBlanc

Day Dream

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Rattle the cage,
Screaming,
But no one,
Can ever hear me...
The harder I try,
The lower my voice,
The lower the echo,
Seems to be...
Am I alone?
Am I seeing things?
Am I the only one,
Who can't be seen?
All this outside noise,
Keeps me hidden behind the scene...

Wake me,
From this nightmare,
I can't be living,
This way...
None of this,
Can be real,
And I'm sick,
Of fighting...
My hopes,
Become simply,
Day dreams,
That are so far from my reach...
I'm not happy,
Watching this same movie play...

Rattling the cage,
As I belt out,
A high note,
Stronger than my scream...
The bars shake,
They break,
And I stand weak,
Not knowing what's next..
I never thought,
I'd break free,
From that cage,
Or day dream...
Now I can change,
The ending...

Shake me,
From this imaginary,
Happiness,
Before I get too involved...
I'm so engaged,
From feeling this free,
Feeling so happy,
From my day dreaming...
Dreaming while I'm awake,
Not able to dream as I sleep,
So my mind projects,
These dreams onto my reality...
I'd ask again,
To be awakened,
But I'm too excited,
For things to go my way...

For things to be right,
For my hard life,
To finally,
Become easy...
I want things set right,
For the wrongs,
To come to light,
Instead of them staying lies...
That's why this feeling,
Of being my own friend,
My own hero,
Has to stay...
I'm too good for the world,
Too good to be heard...

I love this...
I love this...
Don't hate me,
For me never wanting to wake...
This feeling...
This feeling...
This day dream,
Needs to be my every day...
I don't want it to change,
Want it to remain,
I'm living on replay,
And that's fine...
I wish you could see what I'm seeing...
But this is my day dream...

Kristen LeBlanc

It may not make perfect sense to the world but it is what I want to do and continue to do. 

Kristen, the Writer

This side of me VERY few people know about because I like keeping it to myself. 

The first ever piece that I wrote was about my mother. 

It eventually was published in a book. Here it is:

 

Weirdly enough though, poetry isn't my favorite type of writing. 

I enjoy lyrical ballads and writing song lyrics. 

Below is the latest one I have been working on:

 The Real Me

 Come on the scene, 

Like a fashion queen, 

Just trying to be, 

Originally different...

Glitter and glam, 

Dedicated and adoring fans, 

While I walk around, 

Searching for friendship..

Thought I found love, 

Thought I had it all, 

But I ended up,

 Lying to everyone..

There's only one thing,

Left for the world to see..

Chorus:

It's time to be seen,
For what I truly am,
Not for who I was trying to be...
I want you all,
To believe in being happy,
To believe in reality,
To finally meet,
The real me...
I'm far from perfect,
And nothing is worth it,
If you don't work hard,
To earn it..
I built up my own reputation,
Leaving the real me only to your imagination...

Mid Journey,
I had my troubles,
But something,
Got me through those struggles...
It sure wasn't the fame,
Or Hollywood buzz,
Not money,
Or even love...
I had my voice,
My talent of communication,
Singing was my method of choice,
Writing the pain away...
Money and fame can be fleeting,
But my God given talent will remain...

-Repeat Chorus-
It's time to be seen,
For what I truly am,
Not for who I was trying to be...
I want you all,
To believe in being happy,
To believe in reality,
To finally meet,
The real me...
I'm far from perfect,
And nothing is worth it,
If you don't work hard,
To earn it..
I built up my own reputation,
Leaving the real me only to your imagination...

With finding myself,
I've discovered,
More than just an empty shelf,
But a lot missing,
From my life as well...
I want more than to be known,
I want my words to be felt,
Chill you right to the bone...
Make it hurt,
But in the best way,
Make you think,
And make you want to sing...
Love isn't all about sex,
Isn't all about looks,
Isn't all about attraction...
Love is but what,
We all chase in our dreams...
We want to be accepted,
We want to be happy...

-Repeat Chorus-

It's time to be seen,
For what I truly am,
Not for who I was trying to be...
I want you all,
To believe in being happy,
To believe in reality,
To finally meet,
The real me...
I'm far from perfect,
And nothing is worth it,
If you don't work hard,
To earn it..
I built up my own reputation,
Leaving the real me only to your imagination...

Kristen LeBlanc (KML)

This is just me being myself and I can have the critics go wild on me. That's fine. No one is perfect but I work hard to do my best in all of my endeavors. Deal with it. An artist is an artist. His/her methods of communicating her message across are but his/her choice. Peace.