In loving memory of my grandmother who recently passed....happy in heaven with my mother and grandfather now. Love you forever and always.



This Too Shall Pass

Even though the pain has grown,
Even though my heart has cracked,
And fallen apart,
It's used to being broken,
Because I love too hard,
I feel more than most,
And I care way more than I ever should...
I keep losing the ones I love,
I keep getting left alone,
I keep trying to find a connection,
To someone,
Who would never let me go...
I have little faith in myself,
Because I assign blame,
I never want to look back,
But I always seem to hurt the most,
When my past becomes cryatal clear,
Right in front of me...
I don't wanna live in it,
I live with it,
I learn from it,
I grow from the hurt,
I just don't wanna feel that same pain,
Over and over again...
When you grow up only knowing loss,
It's hard to recognize even your own growth,
Because you're continuously torn down,
Your mind and heart are constantly at war,
You can't see past today,
You can't find your own happiness,
Because you're always wanting better,
Than what you've always settled for...
A look in the mirror is even terrifying,
When you don't recognize who you are,
Anymore...
You've become a shell of who you used to be,
An empty feeling that never seems to end,
Stuck in a hole,
Constantly pulling yourself out of...
You want someone there,
Want someone to care,
But in the end,
You're truly all you're gonna have,
When things get rough,
When life truly gets tough,
Because only you have lived this life,
And walked the path you've come along...
Just know that this too shall pass,
This isn't the ending to your story at all,
There's a lot more to be written,
A lot more to happen,
Before you can even start to think,
That your job is done...
We all have a reason to be here,
We all have a mission,
Some just choose to ignore,
What they're meant to do...
I recognized a long time ago,
That I'm an instrument,
And even though I have no use,
For some gifts I've been given,
Others can benefit,
So why be selfish?
If my story can help one person,
If my knowledge can help someone succeed,
Why not start helping?
It's selfish to just love without a care,
Because the person next to you,
May be the one you needed,
To come along,
And save your life,
Say just one thing,
You needed to hear...
Don't take being alive for granted,
We aren't all given second chances,
I've been given a new lease on life,
And I'm giving myself to the world...
I don't see much worth in myself,
Besides the ability,
To make the lives of others,
Better by just being there,
By simply being a friend...
Just one thought bothers me,
One thing haunts me,
Keeps me from sleeping,
And that's how many of you,
Would ever do the same in return?
Would you take generosity ,
And stop it right there,
Not giving it back respectfully?
Comforting a hurting soul,
Hugging someone who feels beyond alone,
Smiling at someone just to do it,
Making a friend with someone different from you...
Why is that so hard to do,
For humanity?
We don't see what's right in front of us,
When we ask for world peace,
But we are our own answer to fixing things,
Why hate when you can love?
Why have war when you can compromise?
Why lie when the truth can be so freeing?
Why let yourself get stuck in a bad time when you're still alive?
You woke up today,
You're breathing aren't you?
You're seeing the sun again,
Through your own raging storm...
Be happy to be able to have a chance on this earth,
Be happy to be able to smile when you want to cry,
Because you're truly stronger than you want to admit,
This too shall pass,
If you allow it to....


Kristen LeBlanc